CurlyWurly Rox

2011-03-26T00:24:00.002+08:00

im so gonna grow fat for this holiday.

all i do at home is to eat what i can eat.

im just too bored you see.

than i will just lie down on my bed with my laptop.

or i will just smoke my boring-ness away.

which could kill me even faster.

i want to go out but sometimes im just to lazy.

besides that, im BROKE to max.

how and what can i do something fun without money?

oh well what to do right im a kid with no job.

and the only way to have money is to ask from the parents.

but still i will feel bad if i have to ask them money.

what you got to do now is just sit at home lah Ain.

peace.

2011-03-17T02:15:00.000+08:00

it was Sister's Wedding last Sunday!

i can't believe that she got married already.

im super happy for her.

but im sad that she have to leave her home.

basically she is now staying with her in-laws.

im too close to her that when she leaves, i feel the emptiness.

i really must get use to this now.

if not i will cry and be so emotional every night.

even typing now can make me cry.

im gonna miss her damn much!

i hope you take care of yourself over there.

hugs and kisses and bites for you! (:

apart from the drama, the wedding was AWESOME shit!

as i was the MAID-OF-HONOUR/HONOR i really am not aware of my surroundings.

oh well i have to be with the bride 24/7 you see.

and it's freaking difficult.

nak gi sane tak leh, nak gi sini tak leh.

ader sampai kena marah. pfft. -.-

still it was her wedding, ikot kan kate dia jer.

Sister was super awesomely gorgeous please.

and im glad that the wedding was a smooth one.

despite the dramas, kanchiong-ness and stress-ness.

lastly i want to thank my FAMILY members: Dad, Mom and Lil Bro.

my relatives, aunt, uncle, cousins who came to the wedding, weather you help or not.

my mom's friends who came to rewang and jage the kuih-muih.

my boyfriend who help to set up tables, wash dishes, be the behind the scene video/camera man.

and my friends who attend my Sis wedding.

sorry if i didn't get a chance to chit chat with you guys.

i love you people a lot ookey!! (:

eh, dah mcm aku pula yg kahwin eeeh! hahaha!

2011-03-17T02:05:00.010+08:00

SANDING DAY

NIKAH DAY

2011-02-07T22:00:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulilah.

this time round, i made my parents happy.

i passed my TP with 14 demerit points.

congrats on yourself Ain.

give yourself a pad on the shoulder. (:

im so gonna be a safe drive. cheey!

but the feeling now after pass like nothing.

but part fail the feeling mcm cb to the max.

oh well dah pass, senyum lebar2 laaah! ((:

and now it's back to reality Ain.

school tomorrow, retest which i've yet recap.

die! die! die! sure can die!

ookey shall start reading already.

2011-02-06T15:20:00.003+08:00

and guess what? i've been blogging. yeay! haha!

tomorrow's my 2nd TP and im feeling okey.

nervous much? not really.

i just don't want to think it as a test.

i want to be cool and calm for it.

make sure i dun get too nervous and start shaking my legs.

and i hope this time i pass.

i don't want to waste my parents money anymore.

ookey shall stop blogging coz it's gonna make me nervous.

wish me luck peoples! (:

2011-02-06T00:51:00.003+08:00

Happy 8th Monthsary Boyfriend!

Whose gonna layan my merepek-ness if it wasn't for You..?

I thank HIM for letting You be a part of my life.

And i'm grateful for having You as my partner.

Despite the shits that had happen,

You know i'll always try my best to be the best girlfriend for you.

I know it's only the 8th month,

but the hope for this relationship is huge.

You get what i mean right Dear?

I deeply love You and never regret the decision i made.

xoxo, CurlyWurly ♥♥♥

p/s: i miss your hair.

2011-02-05T00:53:00.003+08:00

i have a choice.

it's either Friday or Saturday.

and i choose it to be on Saturday.

coz you know why? you don't, but you assume.

my mom wasn't home today,

since you went to skate why not i just sit at home.

and tomorrow she's gonna be home,

so i choose to go out tomorrow.

but it's okey, if you don't feel like seeing me.

i totally understand why.

it's ookey, i'm just being a selfish person right.

i know, don't have to mention that.

if you don't wish to text me either, it's okey.

i understand you must be hurt by me.

and you need time to heal.

just to let you know, im not far away, just a phone call away.

2011-02-05T00:45:00.002+08:00

it's always like that. _l_

whenever i stay mad at you, i'll just breakdown.

fark lah! can't i just get mad and not cry at the same time.

i know why i will intend to breakdown.

coz i just can't bare to stay mad at you for long.

i don't want things to go on like that.

and i don't feel a need to even fight coz of small thing.

seriously ain next time watch what you speak.

coz sometimes people just think differently.

2011-02-04T19:23:00.002+08:00

im bored right now.

bf is busy skateboarding and im left alone.

actually i have a choice to make.

either i go there or i just stay at home.

as much as i want to stay, i really want meet him.

i've like been thinking since just now okey.

argh never mind! just stay at home and study for my retest.

good choice ain, wise choice. can meet ur bf tomorrow. haha!

2011-02-03T12:01:00.002+08:00

im feeling so disappointed.

yes i know we have our own life.

but sometimes i just feel like i'm only making the effort.

there's always bound to be last minute cancelling.

and i hate that part when especially im already excited.

im so looking forward to meet but in the end it got cancel.

how sad can it be right? how irritating it is.

it's like almost every time that happen.

it's like so hard to meet and when got the chance none can make it.

i really hope we could meet one day, really soon.

2011-01-18T01:22:00.002+08:00

i so need to blog about Taiwan trip!

but i just can't find time for it.

gosh! schoool is keeping me busy!

padahal baru nei 1st day eeh dah busy semcm.

assignments and test and examssssss!!

and god knows when all this gonna end!

i so need need to buck up already.

shall start my revision like asap!

mcm paham mode right now ookey.

and ya its already 1.30am and it's a school night.

shall like tug in noooow ookey!

good night people!

2011-01-13T20:53:00.003+08:00

i'm selfish am i? i guess so.

wanting to have you all the time.

and not thinking about you.

ya what do i care right.

i just think about me, me, me.

i really feel like shit now.

how can i be such a bad person?!

guess that im really that bad.

i'm really sorry for being selfish towards you.

i never mean it or even want to be selfish.

i am really sorry for making you miss the interview.

making you all miserable and tired all day.

really i wish i could turn back time so this won't happen.

i'm really sorry once again.

2011-01-01T23:58:00.004+08:00

happy new year everyone!

since everyone is like super the kecoh about it i shall too.

actually nah! change of mine, i rather not. (:

and actually i do have some resolution.

but however i don't think all of it will happen.

here's my 11 resolution i came up with.

1) Get myself SKINNY. (i wissh!)

2) Do some exercise once a week.

3) Eat vegetables. (haha!)

4) Eat no rice or less rice.

5) Cut down on cup noodles and maggie. (noooooo!)

6) No more coke/soda drinks.

7) No more fast food. (like can i leave my cheeseburger?!)

8) Get myself to study.

9) Get gooooood GRADES.

10) Save up my money. (i wish it's easy)

11) Get myself my car licence.

oookey im done with my resolution.

how i really wish all that are easy as ABC,

and life will be like 100% perfect!

on a lighter note, im loving my love life.

boyfriend is being as awesome as he can be.

and family is still being the family.

and school oh what is school right?! ((:

and in 4 days time i'll be at taiwan!

TAIWAAAAAN baby!! ^^

2010-12-21T23:50:00.000+08:00

it was kite flying day with love yesterday.

like finally i get to fly my kite after so long.

i even bought two new kites at $1 each.

and its really a pretty good kite for $1 okey.

but unfortunately it had to rain halfway.

nonetheless we still manage to fly our kite again before it gets dark.

love is like addicted to kite flying already.

tak dapat fly kite abih sad, nak mkn banyak2 pula tu. PBG pls.

nie dia baca confirm plus chop kecoh. hahaha!

2010-12-19T02:44:00.002+08:00

lately been missing out a lot from the net world.

and like always there's so much going on.

rumors, gossip, drama and plenty of other stuff.

okey im so being random in this post pls.

it's freaking 2.45am and im not asleep yet.

mata sumpah tak rasa berat sikit pun.

im like so bored and bf's asleep coz his werking tomorrow.

boring lah bila bf kerja can?!

nak kahwin nya pasal kena lah cari duit.

harga dah naek nie, 20 ribu eeeh! haha!

and im missing bf a loot can??!!

its like been 162562873 days we haven't meet.

ookey bedek padahal 2 hari jer eeh.

dah blank otak nak post aper pun tk tau.

takper lah atleast ader update dah cantek.

selamat malam blogger.com (:

2010-12-13T21:30:00.003+08:00

let's talk about
the past event that had happen.
4th Dec was Boyfriend birthday.
we didn't really celebrate his birthday lah.
we just walk around town and at night was to Arena.
it was simple an awesome night!
first time kan club, excited semcm lah.

and on 11 Dec we head down to SENTOSA!!
and im so sad coz there were too many people at Tanjong beach.
it was so crowed with volleyball guys/girl please!
but still despite that still had fun with my babyboooooy!

and we had BEN & JERRY'S for dessert. ^^
actually si bdk kecik tu mengidam nah nak mkn ice cream.
and just yesterday the family celebrated the parents 24th ani.
we went to Badouqe to have dinner and its simply delightful.
i love my parents so much! and im happy to have us stick as a famliy.

and im left with 4 days till my holidays!! i so can't wait please!
there's like so much happening during the holidays.
siblings outing, the BFF outing, Daebak outing and of coz more dates with bf!
there's also Melaka trip than Batam trip and next TAIWAN trip.
omg! there like soooo much things to do and so little time.
but watever it is for sure it would be a hell fun of holidays!! (:

2010-11-26T22:56:00.003+08:00

since Dayah ask me to update the blog,

so i shall update my blog about today.

i had a very very ver

y piss off morning.

dad was being such a pain in the ass as usual.

school was pretty boring! especially when Dayah didn't come.

its like no laughing day as we cant get to disturbing that girl. ^^

tell you this week school was like a waste of time.

in the afternoon went for curcit driving at bbdc.

after experiencing it somehow i feel confidence.

ookey best gini mcm leh pass TP!! insyallah. (:

so had dinner at Vivo with the boyfriend.

his such a sweetheart to wait for me at Gombak for 1 hour.

and the best part when we reach Clementi was to see a snake!

yes a freaking snake at the bus stop!

cool shit ooor what??! but its kinda small lah not that big.

and so i can't wait for tomorrow event!!

unfortunately no clubbing party, boring!!

and fyi Dayah, while blogging im like listening to your blog songs,

which is in KOREAN. kill me! (:

2010-11-23T16:42:00.002+08:00

life been pretty much the same as always.

nothing special or any miracle happening.

taiwan trip with classmates is confirm!

and im so so so excited for it!

i so can't wait to get on the plane! yeaaay!

cant wiat! cant wait! cant wait!

i really need a vacation right away!

life here is just too much too handle!

as for now im having a long weekend break.

2 days of MC is just wonderful to the max!

getting to skip the 'monday blues' and 'kill me tuesday' days!

having so much rest at home making me lazy for sch tmrw.

must i like go to sch? whr all the boring people are at?

despite having Ze Uzuals, life at sch is bleaah!

and woohoo to me for updating my blog even if no one reads it! (:

2010-11-11T19:41:00.002+08:00

here's where i let everything out when i dun have anyone to turn too.
not that i dun have anyone but i just dun want to share it with them.
so far life been doing well lately for me.
but starting from now i dun think its gonna be any good.
im consider a broke person now.
how i wish i can werk and earn some cash.
i dunnoe how i will survive after this.
by end of november i officially will be totally broke.
Sister bachelorette plus birthday party is coming soon.
and after that will be bf's birthday.
and by time bf's birthday i will have no money to do anything for him.
i put so much on planning a perfect bdae celebration for him.
but without money how ca it even happen.
im so freaking stress out!! i just feel like crying now!
how i wish money can be duplicate. life would be much easier.

2010-10-21T20:29:00.002+08:00

shall update something already.

2nd week of school is already killing me.

im still in my holiday mood.

i just can't seems to pay attention in class.

and thats bad, very very bad.

macam maner nak pass and get good gpa??

aiyooo aper nak jadi nie dgn aku?!

next week must must pay attention already in class.

no more vampires diaries anymore must study hard!

put that a side, i so can't wait for december!!

there's so many happening laah!

first is my TP, second is bf's birthday and third is TAIWAN trip!!

wooohooooo!! enjoy much??! ooh hell yeah!!

ookey im so excited laah! ((:

and im done here people.

2010-10-13T09:47:00.002+08:00

having to face shit is part of life.

you can't expect everything to go your way.

but if you find a solution definitely things can go well in your life.

to my love ones, be strong in whatever you're facing,

insyallah the future will be better for you.

i may not be in your shoes but i feel you.

just stay strong and face it ookey loves.

2010-10-10T20:03:00.009+08:00

Ubin trip yesterday was simply awesome!!

got up super early to go down to Tamp just for this trip.

the leg pain, ass feel like splitting into half, the cycling, the hiking, is worth it!

Pulau Ubin i'm so coming back for you despite all the pains.

i think i shall go down at least twice a month..

confirm confirm boleh lose weight, not. haha!

and the best part was the thai coconut.

fuuuuuh, peh sedap itu kelape nya air aku sedut!!

overall its a good damn work out man!

the Captain.

ader nie apek aku suruh ambek gambar.

tapi entah mata dia memandang kemana jer.

FAIL.

what are you thinking abt this sign?

the Ladies.

the Mens.

the PTI's. ok part aku mcm faham lah kan.

boyfriend just adore this white rabbit.

see how high i have to go just to see such the beautiful scenery below.

muka penat, takder oxygen to the max.

the tired couples.

love. boyfriend. everything.

2010-10-09T00:39:00.003+08:00

suddenly i feel the urge to blog.

no topic to blog about so i'm just gonna blog about boyfriend.

boy, you the fucking best boyfriend ever.

despite everything that is happening, i'll be there for you.

through thick and thin i be by your side.

and i want you to know that i really love you with all my heart.

insyallah everything will work out fine love.

yes, things may be difficult right now, but who knows in the future it changes.

i believe in you and you got to believe in yourself that you can make a difference.

baby, i love you too much to see you get hurt.

i'm here and always will so don't worry about anything.

i'm here to help in every possible way.

2010-10-05T10:51:00.002+08:00

bgn pagi jer dah pissed off!

klw kau tak nak tlg byr den blg!

tak yah nak siang2 ckp tu semua kau bayar lah.

klw kau nak ungkit psl duit, stop it sey.

aku sekarang kuar ader minta kau duit peer?

aku stakat minta duit utk byr lesen aku jer.

aper kau nak check aku tipu kau ker tak?

aku tak tak tak tipu kau lah!

eeh aku kerja sebab tak nak susah kan kau.

aku tak minta kau duit sebab aku tau kau perlu kan duit!

klw aku kerja mcm hari2 plus 1 bulan dpt gaji tak per.

nie aku kerja utk beberape hari jer.

arrrrrgggh!! klw kau tk nak byr tkper!

AKU PUN TK MINTA LAAAH!!!

2010-10-03T21:56:00.005+08:00

raya with ze usualz is just awesome!

even though tk dapat collection, still enjoy it!

like finally i get to jalan raya with my friends.

and best part boyfriend over-night!

okey im too lazy to update much.

2010-10-01T00:39:00.002+08:00

ookey my blog is so dead.

like really really dead.

im just to busy and plain lazy to blog.

i been busy with the F1 event.

and yes gotten my pay which is not that much.

and no im not gonna go back thr to werk.

3 days werk of banquet is just freaking tired.

after the last day, i got myself in pretty bad condition.

flu, sorethroat, headache.

and i slept for freaking 14 hours laah.

thats a pretty looooong hour for sleeping.

and boyfriend always been a sweetheart.

trying his best to take care of me. (:

and i just can't wait for Saturday.

boyfriend gonna sleep over. yeaaaaay!

okey im done blogging, need to sleep now.

tomorrow will be my next driving lesson.

2010-09-21T15:41:00.002+08:00

im happy that bf found a new job.

i hope this job will really be a success one for him.

coz i want to see him be happy always.

and im happy to have him as my bf. (:

so far life been good for me and him.

im having a great time right now.

having my 1 month of holiday.

and im now having my driving lesson.

and soon i'll go for TP and than i will be a very happy girl.

so after i pass my car license, im gonna take bike.

bf and i plan to take together. actually more lyke i plan it. hee.

than dah pass kita share duit beli motor!! woohoo!

well i hope it be true one day, hoping for it.. (:

so yeah this week im like totally not free.

i be werking in the F1 thingy for 3 daes.

and i just can't wait for the 3rd day so that i can get the pay!!

hahah! tu jer yg aku ingat eeh.. ^^

Sungguh Kecoh Raya Banyak Story 2010!

2010-09-13T22:03:00.009+08:00

i so lazy want type long long eh.

so i shall just upload the pictures.

indeed it was a great raya this year.

very the kecoh. a lot of bitching and a sad one too.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN!

bapa aku tgh light rokok tu. haha!

Just For You. ♥

2010-09-02T20:59:00.003+08:00

when i'm with you, im just like a little kid.

how crazy i can get around you.

how we laugh at each other stupid mistake.

how we would make fun of each other.

how we call each other stupid nicknames.

how the little kisses feels like forever.

how you hug me make me wanting you more.

how the cuddles make me feel safe in ur arms.

how you being there just make my day a lot brighter

how having you as a partner is another greatest gift.

how you would just listern to me talk non-stop.

how you always help me in all the little things

how you make me feel losing you will be the greatest lost.

baby, you make me head over heels for you.

baby, you make me love you all over again.

baby, you make me wanting you more and more.

baby, you make me non-stop thinking about you.

baby, i love you, never in the morning, neither at night, nor forever.

but day after day after day, i never stop loving you.

2010-09-01T18:48:00.003+08:00

it feels like im having another week of holiday.

Monday lesson was lyke no lesson.

cikgu dtg, dia ddk diam2, kita buat hal sendiri.

Tuesday agi best! half day.

and i only came school for 1 freaking hr okey.

sumpah waste time aku jer!

and today, its teacher's day, so no school!

yeeesy happy sangat2 lah kan..

so i went to library with boyfriend.

he accompany me to study for my test tomorrow.

which im so gonna fail bad for the test!!

half way study, pause for awhile and watch 'White Collar'.

we watch till 3 episode and it was tyme to go.

nak buka dgn dia, tapi bapa aku dah masak chapatti.

kesian pula laah kan plus tk nak aku kena nag2 nanti.. -.-

2010-08-31T21:55:00.003+08:00

baby, you're freaking the best.

and i freaking love you so much.

2010-08-28T00:24:00.002+08:00

i've yet updated my blog since 2000.

its rotting and getting pretty dusty.

ookey line same jer aku nie. boring!

so lets see what i've been up too??

home, home, more home and much more home!

im really getting bored of home man!

i have to lyke make sure i wake up early.

and help mom everyday to prepare for breakfast.

than i have to wash and clean everyday.

gosh! im getting pretty tired all of that.

and plus i can't take it will the talking so loudly parents.

ear pain ookey, very irritating much!

and ohya not forgetting, i miss boyfriend very very much!

2010-08-21T00:49:00.009+08:00

im kinda lazy to blog much about my iftar sessions.

i'll just upload the pictures ookey people! (:

Wednesday buka with the boy.

saloon at first to get my red highlight.

which im loving it so much!! (:

than off to marina barrage.

you must be wondering aper lah kita buka kat sane.

well we order pizza hut, trio cheese, garlic bread & chix!

yum yum yum indeed!!

slack there and enjoying each other company.

butch, no matter what you are still love!

Friday Iftar was with my 3 lovelies.

Kampong Glam Cafe for buka.!

Nasrin for Sheesha afterwards.

simply enjoy the awesome date!

left alone.

2010-08-16T22:45:00.003+08:00

boyfriend, where are you?

i'm in need of you and i want you badly.

before i can even finish this post, i can just cry.

this isn't what i had in mine for us.

its only the starting and things gone chaotic.

and in the first place its not even about us.

its about other things that make us like this.

how i wish it never interfere with our relationship.

i'm sorry that i have put you in so much pressure.

i'm sorry that i want make things better.

i'm sorry that i want things to go as how i want it.

i know it won't be possible with the current situation.

how i wish, i really wish i could help you.

how i wish i could just tell him off about whats happening.

love, can i just do it for you?

coz i can't bare seeing you going through all this.

baby, i love you too much that i feel the pain you feeling.

and i just can't bare it anymore!

i need u badly, i need you now, i need you later, i need you forever.

i need my boyfriend, where is he?

2010-08-14T17:02:00.002+08:00

im feeling down right now.

and i just dunnoe why?

im being such a cry baby and very emotional.

i cry for a moment and than i'll stop and than i cry again.

serious it got nothing to do with me.

its more like something to do with boyfriend.

his the one who is facing problems day in, day out.

and today i think is the worst case.

me, trying so hard to cheer him up in anyway i possibly could.

but still i fail. and somehow that feeling make me so emotional.

i can cry by just texting him and reading his text only.

baby i want you to feel better.

i want you to feel alive.

i want you to put a big smile.

i want you to talk to me like u always do.

and baby i wish u dun have to go through this shit.

2010-08-12T22:26:00.004+08:00

let's blog something even if i dun have something.

for sure ltr on i have something.
but what isthat something could be about?
hahaha! k aku dah mula crap! (:
so bf's asleep lyke ya asleep at this tyme.
basically his not feeling well and he needs rest.
get well soon ookey baby, i dun lyke u sick sick!
ookey im so bored, nothing to do and missing you.
next week will be a pretty busy week.
buka session with kindergarten mates, so call a reunion for us.
than there's buka with boyfriend.
and also buka with Ze Uzuals.
and also not forgetting buka with my 3 lovely babies!
and that's all the buka's so far i remember i have.
kaaaaaau kecooh peeer ain! aru puasaa dah kecoh!
klw raya nanti mcm aneer daah.. -.-
and and and not fogrtting im suppose to paint my room!
woooohoooo! excited much ookey! ((:
but one thing, colour still not decided yet..
purple? red? green? blue? black? yellow? raindow? (:

2010-08-09T22:29:00.004+08:00

happy birthday Singapore!

im proud to be a Singaporean.

coz this is the most safest country that you can live in.

but part rules tu kebanyakkan ader merepek ar.

so todae meet up with boyfriend. (:

me: Monday mesti kena jumpa juga. nanti 1 month tak leh jumpa.

him: abih you tak nak buka dgn i ker?

haha! the way he say it just super cute!

of coz i do want buka with you and find out baju raya.

we both so gonna wear turquoise this year raya.

this year baju raya with family will be green!

and i already aim at this baju at geylang.

sumpah excited plus tak sabar nak raya.

padahal puasa pun belum eeh.. haha!

and im so wanting to paint my room this year.

since i have lyke 2 weeks of holiday might as well i paint the room.

soooo what colour should it be? still haven't decide yet.

now left with 2 days till puasa!!

1 month of 'dieting'.

1 month of no sins.

1 month of pahala.

1 month can lose weight. -.-

1 month of being good girls/boys.

Ramadan

2nd Monthsary. ♥♥♥

2010-08-08T01:03:00.012+08:00

baby, you been the best and i know u always will.

i love you too much to let you go.

i really appreciate and treasure everything.

you're the sweetest, awesome, loving, boyfriend!

never do i regret making the decision to be with you.

despite whatever shit might happen or had happen,

i know our relationship wont't easily be ruin.

thanks for being with me in every second of your life.

i love you, muhd azhiim bin abdul wahab! ♥♥♥

our 2nd monthsary date wasn't plan at all.

as both of us totally forget about it.

how awesome are we right??!

we had movies in the afternoon at Marina Square.

The Last Airbender was awesooome!

will be waiting for more of the others.

after that was lunch at MacD and band performance at Esplanade.

and thats when i remember our 2nd monthsary. ♥

we left half way the performance and headed down to Haji Lane.

somehow Nasrin service is getting slower and slower.

i think coz it's a weekend and there too many human beings.

we spent about 3hour plus there, sheesha-ing and playing card games.

really had fun, crap a lot and cam-whore a lot too!

it was lucky for us to still catch a bus despite its was 12.17 already.

and the bus we board was the very last bus.

boyfriend, i had fun being around you and i miss you so much now.

thanks for the time and making me smile. ♥

2010-08-05T09:17:00.002+08:00

Walk The Talk Fashion Show was awesome!

even i didn't win, i still had fun and making new friends.

bf did came and he was on time.

and he didnt get any pictures!! grrrr!
salah kan camera konon, padahal dia enth tau pakai ke tak.

Ze Uzuals did came down too even though they had lesson..

thaaanks people! sayang sama krg!

so after that went to Lot 1 to catch a movie with bf.

Despicable Me was supeer cute can!

after movies we didnt had any plan so headed down to BB.

bf wanted to sk8 so give in and let him sk8.

how good am i right?? -.-

and bf was supeeer hype hype hype nya!

bf, aku sayaaang kau!!

2010-08-03T23:53:00.003+08:00

tomorrow gonna be a tiring day for sure.

it's the day of the 'Walk The Talk Fashion Show'.

im pretty excited and kinda feeling nervous.

i've yet decide on my 1st outfit yet, can u believe it?!

it's tmr and im not sure what to wear..?

either a short dress or the baggy flabby pants with tank top?

i want to use the baggy flabby pants but kinda feel it will look funny.

boyfriend and Ze Usualz says its pretty ookey.

but im having doubts.. haiiiz.. susah susah mcm nie.

and i've yet pack everything laah and its already 12am now.

i need to be at school like pretty early at 8.30am.

for sure it's gonna be a drag man!

and and and the best thing abt tmr is bf coming down!!

how sweet of you to paitao werk and come to see nothing-wow-about-me-modeling.

im grateful and happy that you be comign tmr love.

thanks a million baby, you're the best!! ♥

2010-08-02T00:31:00.002+08:00

like finally im done changing the blog skin.

it takes me an hour to change here n there.

and now i just adore my new skin.

today is simply just superb!

it was a very windy and cooling day.

the weather indeed is perfect today.

being at home doing nothing, lying on the bed.

bf came over in the evening but didn't stay long.

even so having u around for a short time makes my day.

getting to cuddle you and you showering me with love.

damn boy, u make me hypnotize.

ookey now off to slp as tmrw gonna be a long day at sch!

good night people and hope this week will be a bless!

2010-07-31T23:39:00.005+08:00

date with boyfriend as usual, awesome!!

i love love love my boyfriend!!

first was to beach road to get a bag.

like finally dah dpt beli juga.

than went to Serangoon for our dinner.

it was Seoul Garden and its just superb!

we had our dinner for like 2 freaking hours.

and serious shit both of us are like full to the max.

boyfriend of coz can't wait for dessert.

like a small lil kid wanting his ice cream badly.

so after dinner we headed down to Bugis Street.

i needed to find an outfit for my Walk the Talk Fashion Competition.

and the one who is really into this is of coz boyfriend.

dia yg betulnya excited for the competition.

badly wanting me to find a nice outfit for it.

and boyfriend even say he wants to come down.

awwww how sweet can my boyfriend be right.

and i really hope he could come and support me.

well i dun expect much from this comp just for the fun.

oooh ya i got myself coloured hair extension.

saya suka banyak2 caan! nie gi skola cikgu nmpk dah bising.

im blogging to much, shall upload pictures now!

2010-07-28T20:59:00.002+08:00

gosh im terribly exhausted, really am.

half of the day was spent outside.

first was to ite simei for what shit carnival.

than to Tampines for Popeye's!

the mashed potato is just awesome!

and im lyke craving for it now.

bf lets go Cangi airport for Popeye's!!

after lunch headed down to Vivo to meet bf.

and im pretty sorry i was super damn late.

i noe u very mad at me for that.

and to Yati thanks and sorry to trouble u.

we wanted to watch some performance at RP,

but than change of plan and in the end just chill around.

actually bf wanted to sk8 but somehow it rain.

daah sad boy dia. thr's always next tyme baby.

despite all this i had fun with my babies n bf! ((:

2010-07-25T10:26:00.002+08:00

awesome night with boyfriend yesterday!

first was to Queensway and than to Town.

had our Swensen's date and it was my treat.

boyfriend was a happy boy getting his ice cream.

and afterwards we just walk around town.

headed to OC skygarden and got a chance to see fireworks!

we really did took a loot of pictures yesterday.

at the end of the date we had dinner of cup noodle under the blk.

boyfriend, love you much! ♥♥♥

2010-07-23T22:13:00.003+08:00

seriously im dead bored!

i have nothing better to do, so lets blog.

boyfrieeend!! get home soon plz.

i was viewing this particular person fb.

as i was looking at that person being happy always,

it just reminds me of how you have gone through a lot.

the pain. the sadness. everyday dealing with the same thing.

thinking about that makes me feel the way u feeling.

really you shouldn't be going through this.

when will he realise that he needs to wake up?

seriously someone need to knock some sense in this head.

if not it could just go on. being in a fantasy and not the reality.

well i wish i could do something about it.

but im just an outsider and i cant doing anything much.

i only can be there for you so that you stay strong.

i hope it end soon coz i cant afford to see you get hurt everyday.

2010-07-23T21:34:00.002+08:00

it's Friday already and tmrw is Saturday!!

Swensen's date with boyfrieeeend! yeay!

and we both are lyke out of places to go already.

Singapore is pretty small ya noe.

thr's not much place to go without using money.

either we go to town or to arab street.

and tomorrow everwhr is pack with humans.

did i tell you guys that i got a new wallet!!

i guess not! its a pretty plain wallet but i just love it!

once in awhile pampering myself with something costly.

so what should i wear tmrw??

i just realise i got 4 tops than havent been used. ohmy!

beli beli beli tak pakai2..

since bf is bz skateboarding i'll entertain myself with movies. (:

and yaa bf u are suppose to werk and not sk8 okey.

a long post but it's worth it.♥

2010-07-22T23:05:00.009+08:00

having to force myself to school for 5 days a week.

well its such a big thing but its a good thing for me.

and plus with Ze Uzuals that always crack jokes make it the best thing.

having you guys is such an awesome thing!

we laugh at everything, tease each other, bully one another.

it just make school life a less boring thing to do.

knowing you guys was a great gift.

we may be loud, we may be bitches but hey that's what make us together.

i love you people, Ze Uzuals!!

even though having new friends which are awesoome.

i still wont forget my 3 babies/bestfriends/sisters.

you guys always been thr for me.

going through every shit and happiness together.

im dying to meet u guys badly.

and i sure i will plan something soon so that we 4 can gossip!!

so much, so much that we miss out on each other.

misses you and love you BFs!!

and lastly not forgetting, i miss my boyfriend.

you have been the greatest, the best, the awesome person!

you been my friend, my enemy, my soulmate, my brother, my bestfriend, especially being my boyfriend.

never once you give up on me and i really appreciate it.

you gone through shits with me.

how much i had hurt and make you suffer in the past.

when you cry in front of me, i just couldn't bare to see.

at a point we were apart for sometime but now guess what?

we're an item which can't be apart.

i won't regret making this choice of being with you.

coz i noe for sure you won't disappoint me love.

insyallah we will last long. (:

thanks for being patience with me baby.

2010-07-21T18:28:00.005+08:00

ookey lets update my blog, it's getting pretty dusty.

last weekend was spent with Cinta on Friday.

spring cleaning at home on Saturday.

and Sunday was Sister Engagement.

i had fun with Cinta but unfortunately something sad happen.

wanted to have our Swensen ice cream buffet,

but the Q was long so tak dpt laah.

and bf being lyke a small kid, tunjuk muka sedih dia tk dpt ice cream.

later in the evening went to Arab Street, sheesha of coz.

Sister engagement was aweesome!!

sumpah kecoh nak mampos punya rmi org.

and it was crazy with the cooking and guest coming in.

and seriously it's a very tiring thing to prepare for engagement.

SELEMAT BERTUNANG!! (:

and finally im done updating my blog.

2010-07-15T09:50:00.002+08:00

its gonna be friday lyke soon! ((:

happy laah sngt sngt kan.

date with boyfriend tmrw, so can't wait!

and i can't wait for the weekend.

sister is getting engaged and im the bridesmaid.

aweeesome! i so can't wait for the wedding!

currently im in school having my computer lesson.

im so bored too death and slpy and hungry much!!

and sumpah nari lesson boring!!

2010-07-12T20:12:00.001+08:00

so here goes another week of hell.

i've been a very lazy big fat pig.

yesterday sch starts at 9am but i came at 12pm.

and todae i thought of coming sch late again.

but than confirm ltr bf marah.

so must be good girl and go to sch.

i just dunnoe why im too lazy to wake up.

and now im so slpy, keep yawning non-stop.

ooh ya people, im fasting todae.

how good am i right? hahaha!

i miss boyfriend a loot can??!

mcm lyke very lame long gitu tak jumpa tau!

nvr mind Friday shall be our date k baby?

lets go get Swensens and movies and have fun!! (:

i loove you sweetheart!

2010-07-10T00:22:00.006+08:00

oooh its Friday! lyke finally!

i had my BTT after school and i passed!!

im soo soo soo a happy happy girl. (:

to add on to that happiness, i received $1200!!

how great is that! this is all the hard work i put in my studies.

cheeey mcm P jer aku! thats freaking a lot of money man!!

and to add on to the Friday happiness, went out with dearly BF!

we had movie session, Eclipse is indeed an aweesome movie.

meeting you is always the best thing!

i can be who i want, whatever i want and act how i want to.

♥i love you so much Muhd Azhiim!!♥

"baby! i giler giler kan you!! haha!!"

2010-07-05T22:21:00.006+08:00

new school was sookey lah.

its now lyke supeeer far from my house!

lyke i must wake up extra early laah.

sch is big and pretty much pack with humans.

bump into some old friends, dah mcm reunion.

did i tell that i simply love my weekends!

friday was extremely awesome.

morning with Cinta at Sentosa.

followed by sheesha and pool with ite mates.

and back to arab street again with Cinta & friends to watch soccer.

sweet and awesoome night!

sunday had Karate Kid and Seoul Garden with family.

sumpaaah i soo lyke seuol garden!! (:

and i miss boyfriend a loot caan!!

2010-06-28T03:12:00.003+08:00

it's 3.12am and im wide awake.

and im lyke doing one of my project werk.

how crazy and insane is that?

me who dun really do much stuff in the afternoon,

but can be very active in the early morning.

i have 2 project and 1 assignment need to be done.

and i only got 1 project going on and its only 25% done.

well the rest dun talk about it, not a single thing.

and im left with 1 week to do all that.

die, die, die, confirm die nya!

i hope ltr weather will be shinning bright!

coz i want go kite flying with sister and probably with bf too.

speaking of him, his sound asleep right now.

i hope u sleep peacefully tonight and get well soon aites dear.

love you boy.

2010-06-27T01:02:00.006+08:00

friday was awesomely spent with my mates n bf.

in the afternoon had our project meet up.

and kita sumpah janji melayu giler babi nya.

suppose to meet up at 3pm but end up meet half an hour ltr.

afterwards meet up with bf and fwens at Siloso beach.

didn't join in to swim as im lazy to bring my stuff.

and hell yeah we had lyke a lot of pics taken.

when the camera is out it nvr stop snapping.

2010-06-21T21:50:00.007+08:00

kite flying with Cinta at WCP was aweesome!

despite the kite didn't stay long, bf nvr stop trying.

i really had fun, fun, fun. must do it again okey bf?!

our kite!

bf dgn bersungguh2.

i love boyfriend.

2010-06-18T00:32:00.005+08:00

Wednesday plan was to go Sentosa with bf.

but coz of the rain we had to cancel it.

so we meet up and went to botanic garden.

lucky it had stop raining and had our picnic session.

even though we didn't have activity to do,

spending tyme with Cinta is enuf to make my day.

well meeting you will never be enuf love.

and so gonna miss you ltr when im away to kampong.

take care of urself and better be sure to go to werk.

Today spent tyme with Mom to the dentist.

and plus plus shopping sekejap.

Mango having sale and i bought lyke 3 tops n 2 jeans.

i suka many many! am a happy girl! (:

and the other half of the day was with Cinta.

meet up with him and off to DogTown so as he can sk8.

i love boyfriend but love Mom a lot moore!!

2010-06-14T17:21:00.012+08:00

im suppose to be going for my floorball trg.

but nah im kinda lazy n having a tiny headache.

now im lyke at home waiting for Cinta, to go for lunch/dinner.

there's pasar mlm and so gonna get Char Kuay and Wade!!

yumyumyum!! i've been wanting that for so long..

but this budak kecik somehow is taking so long to go out.

im hungry boyfriend, faster caaan pls??

yesterday i asked him this particular qn.

Me: When u saw me cry, did it somehow hurt you?

Him: Yes it did hurt me.

well baby, i love you so much. ♥♥♥

and baby let's go to the beach again!!

i want get myself dark, as dark as u can??

haha! so joking abt that, i just want to be tan!

or why not go to the beach with my girlfrieeeends!!

jomjomjom!! saper naaak gi beach picit aku k.

2010-06-13T16:41:00.002+08:00

simply love the weekends!

Friday was out with my dear babies, Biel and Erin.

including Fa, Kat and Fiq. they are new friends. (:

movies at first and sheesha afterwards.

Nightmare on Elm Street was aweeeesome!

should watch the movie with Cinta soon.

coz i wanna see him jump off from his seat. haha!!

Saturday was spent with the family at JB.

didn't do much thr just shop for kitchen stuff.

and Mom of coz shop for her barang2 Avon & Cosway.

got back to Singapore around 8pm and off to meet Cinta.

headed to town to meet his fwens and plan to watch soccer match.

but in the end we had Karaoke session until 4am.

by then everyone was tired and tekak saket so we proceed home.

i had greaaaat fun with my babies, fam and Cinta! ((:

2010-06-09T23:51:00.003+08:00

school ended early lyke baeeek!!

meet up with Cinta and off to town..

and double yeaah dpt tgk Shrek!! ((:

cerita is awesoome and funny and cute.

after that chill at Lido McCafe and camwhore!

and im a happy happy girl noow!!

term break has started! lyke woohoo!!

enjoy! party! outings! wake up late!!

sumpaaah aku sukaa sngt2!!

♥ i love my Cinta! ♥

2010-06-08T20:56:00.003+08:00

i didn't get to watch my Shrek and very much upset abt it!!

i didn't expect it's gonna be full by 2pm when the show is at 3.30pm.

can u believe it? well actually i totally forgot its June holiday's.

kids are having their hols and watching movie of coz.

lyke argh! grrrrr! bingit! aku nak tgk tu Shrek!!

so yeah me and Cinta decide to skip movie and head for lunch.

both were lyke terribly hungry and we had kfc, boring much!

what else there is at habourfront right besides fast food.

planning to fetch Cinta from werk tmrw and probably catch Shrek!!

basically he have no idea abt me fetching him.

and i hope he goes to werk and not plan to go skate after werk.

if he does go skate nampak nya aku kt BB tgk dia skate.. -.-

2010-06-08T11:21:00.002+08:00

currently at sch having HPO bonding.. its my course bonding.. kinda boring but some of the performance are awesome!! and its ending soon yeah!! am gonna go watch sherk ltr on with Cinta!! Cinta fetching me and off to movie.. Rindu kamu sih!! (:

2010-06-06T23:02:00.006+08:00

one thing for sure i will miss hanging out with PTL!

no more we hanging out and shopping session.

no more riding on ur DRZ. bubbye to that.

will miss those crazy rides we had till dawn.

and ya i noe u pretty surprise of the r/ship,

coz we suppose to be part time lovers for long. haha!

oh well dah jodoh smpi kan and it was time.

i wish u find a girlfriend soon! and make sure sentiasa!

take care aites. (:

and im pretty sure coz of this r/ship,

i may hurt someone out thr.

and i dunnoe if i should say sorry or what.

but i hope u're happy for me and take good care of urself.

hey, look on the bright side, still being friends won't kill.

2010-06-06T21:04:00.002+08:00

and 06 June 2010 marks the date.

wooo im attached! lyke wow! unbelievable!

no more looking at cute and hot guys Ain! hahaha!!

a year of patiences u gone through and now it really paid off.

we knew that even when we leave each other,

one dae we will be back again.

you really gone through a lot with me.

and im glad that now you won't have too.

i hope our relationship will go smooth coz i dun want any drama with you.

you're just a sweetheart Cinta and i love you for that! ♥

2010-06-05T20:32:00.002+08:00

stayed home on Saturday.

kinda lazy to go out today.

sat at home and watch movies.

i've watch lyke 3 diff movies already.

and im left with only 1 movie.

what movie should i download people?

any ideas on what movies that is nice to watch??

oh ya Cinta came over today. (:

and i miss you already Cinta!!

too bad he can't stay long, have to werk.

oh well its okey thr's always a next tyme.

2010-06-05T00:30:00.002+08:00

finally i get to watch Sex & The City 2!!

and i didn't expect it to be freaking long..

no matter what the movie is superb!!

next movie in mind will be Sherk, damn i want watch it!

when? when? when? when will it be?

todae was kinda a short quick date with Azhiim.

meet up, movie at Suntec and dinner.

somehow it isn't enuf and less tyme spent.

but still i love the two hours in movie theater with you.

you just one adorable old kid! haha!

and ya i made up my mind, making a big decision here.

for sure this will be it and this tyme im pretty sure of it.

i guess im well prepare for it and it ain't a rebound.

wondering what im talking about?

just wait for few more daes!! ((:

2010-06-03T21:59:00.004+08:00

so yeah let's post something!

im home and im bored!

lyke totally freaking bored.

i want go out! caan i?

haha ooh please ain you wish!

nothing really much exciting happen todae.

just the same boring sch days.

and ya floorball was cancel last min.

lyke woooo i lyke that! ((:

i feel lyke finding for a boyfriend.

hmmm should i or should i not?

i miss having one, and calling him BF!

it be so much fun and super nice feeling.

ooh well i guess not for now.

if i want one than i shall find the right one.

a boyfriend who be thr no matter what.

not leaving me for anything.

and when im with him, the feeling will be lyke,

only the two of us in this world. (:

2010-06-02T23:31:00.002+08:00

and lyke finally, i've change my blog skin!

and it took me lyke freaking 2 hours.

just so it suits my perfection.

and i just simply looooving it! (:

i noe its pretty plain, but thats what i want this tyme..

just some simple and not much happening blog skin.

2010-06-02T11:56:00.002+08:00

either my song is too soft or they just to noisy.

seriously this is freaking irritating.

common lah krg nak buat bising agak2.

there's lyke other human beings okey.

im left with 1 hour of sch.

this 2 hours of class is wasted.

why cant u just let us go home?

so yeaah what else eeh??

im feeling2 nak change blogskin but lazy much.

and i've plan to post with only one colour now.

hahah!! i noe so tk perlu blg info kan. (:

i been loving the past daes!

its just so aweeeesooome!!

and i just wish for 1 more night please.

okey im done., i have nothing much to blog abt.

2010-05-27T22:35:00.003+08:00

i've done packing my bag for tmrw.

and im freaking hungry! lyke really hungry!

should i cook maggie or should i just starve myself to slp?

probably the best ans is to eat. tak bleh tahan!

so yeah floorball trg was pretty fun just now.

plus tiring much laah, especially warm up.

okey now my mood have change. haiz...

im having mix feelings. am i that bad?

lyke wtf sey? being nice sometimes and

not having any intention for being nice,

is wrong hah? i didn't know that?

i didn't know that texting was a bad idea.

i really dunnoe whats on ur mind when u said that.

didn't really expect that coming at all..

oh well what can i say, im a complicated problematic child.

2010-05-27T11:35:00.004+08:00

currently at school right now.

and yeah aper lagi fb juga lah.

class before this was so so much fun!

we didn't really have any lesson before.

so since Faiz brought along this lappy.

webcam of cause! we really had our crazy moments!

it was lyke sumpah gerek!!

we take pics, look at it and laugh out loud seeing it!

i really just love them! they the best in sch! (:

soon will be having our break in half n hour time.

so gonna get thosai!! Mr Prata here we come!!

and now im lyke tired, sleepy, hungry.

after sch gonna ahve floorball trg.

tu agi mcm aku mls kaan! but nvr mind must go!

p.s oh boy you're so cute. and you remind me of him.

2010-05-26T22:32:00.009+08:00

last post was on Saturday and it's Wednesday.

damn! my blog is pretty dusty.

actually wanted to blog on Monday.

but delay delay until today.

my laziness ar cannot angkat!

lyke omg it's gonna be weekend! (:

gonna be spending my weekends at Malaysia.

celebrating Mum's birthday! woohoo!

indeed gonna be fun fun fun!

but i'll be back on Sunday alone.

suruh part time lover ambek kt JB tak nak.

tkt motor tercinta nya hilang. -.-

speaking of the part time lover, went out with him last Sat.

he was suppose to fetch me at Dhoby Ghaut as i got some project meeting.

but in the end he was still snoring at home and i came to his place.

plus the meeting was cancel! _l_

uat penat ajer aku bgn siang2 tapi tkder hasil!

so yeah headed to Suntec, Town n Arab Street!!

biasa juga alek2 Sheesha juga si Ain nie kan.

and seriously on Sat the traffic is lyke fuck!

there was to many cars on the road!

and we were lyke under the hot sun.

dah buka helmet terus member tegur asal berpeluh.

and best part nie bdk bwk mtr mcm nak bunuh aku!

and ya my hair was flat coz of the helmet lah. ):

usually when we went out we dun talk much.

but this time we had so many topics to talk about.

okey enuf about Saturday already, dah lepas lame pun.

post is getting to wordy so better stop for now. (:

2010-05-22T00:04:00.002+08:00

dude, you still somewhere lingering in my head.
damn! i miss you a whole lot again.
can you get out of my head already?
really you one guy who still stuck in my head.
not letting go even reality is you move on.
oh my oh my, whats wrong Ain?
oookey shuddup already! i starting my crap again.
hahaha wth! cock! shit! mepekx!!
deadline are oretty close and much work need to me done.
test keep on coming and i bet exams are too.
oh well need to really do well for all exams. (:
than it will be holidays!!!
gonna have chalet during June hols..
and so so gonna enjoy and party people!!!
tomorrow another meeting held in the afternoon..
but whr should i go after that hah?
nvr mind that is a no prob situation!

2010-05-15T21:27:00.005+08:00

i got to stop all this.
i shall never turn back and look at it.
it's pointless and will never change anything.
i know i can and i shall try to do it.
everyone who been there for me is just great.
you guys really help me and giving me advice.
i should look on the brighter side.
if i can't get him, i won't play a dirty trick.
i will just follow with the flow and let fate decide.
and on the same time i make the changes.
i can't expect everything to turn the way i want it to be.
but for sure i can make it a better one.
this isn't a mistake or a wrong path i took.
it's just a lesson for me in life.
i never regret knowing you or will hate you.
you were part of my life for a moment,
so i will keep it safe in my memories.
it was great knowing you and getting close to you.
but it looks like we aren't meant to happen.
i came and want to end things correctly and in peace.
after much thinking, it's not worth waiting.
i'm no good for you, coz i noe someone else deserve u better.
but how i wish u appreciate a lil' bit of me.
oh well this is it. im closing the chapter to this drama of mine.
i gotta get on my feet and start something new.
a fresh new chapter will be great. (:

2010-05-13T23:53:00.003+08:00

please eh stop it sey perangai.
tak mu bbl mcm P laah.
serious shit stop it seey.

on a lighter note, feeling2,
mcm nak tukar blogskin.
but lyke leceh also ader.
but mcm dah boring dgn nie skin pun ader.
but mcm sayang pun ader.
coz i like this very much.
naaah! won't change for now lah.
and wow! its Friday! thats super fast!
and its been 1 week, haizz what a hell of a ride..
1 week seems so fast lyke just few days.
tomorrow is Friday and i shall enjoy my weekends,
instead of not doing anything. (:

2010-05-13T17:15:00.003+08:00

im bored at home!
there's nothing fun to do.
hmmm bored much!
im too tired and too slpy for sch
or even for my floorball trg.
2nd tyme of trg jer dah tk gi.
gosh! im so lazyyyyy.
and im so hungry now!!
both parents plus bro went to Melake..
so left me alone with nothing at home.

and i still keep thinking of it.
bitch much! hypocrite much! asshole much!
ookey what's wrong with me?
i shouldn't be disturb by all this.
coz i have my friends who appreciate me and they are thr for me.
ily people much much!! ♥
ooh well i want go and find something..
something interesting to do and get my mind of this. -_-'

2010-05-12T21:26:00.002+08:00

i did and i try but i just couldn't let go and move on.
its not as easy as i want it to be.
i wonder how it made so easy for u.
i see you are happily living ur life.
good for u coz it just show me alot.
really shows me a lot about you.
gosh! why am im still thinking about it.
why why why? if he can why not me?
why must i? why can't i just move on??
AIN!! u really need to do something.
i just cant go on and living in my past.
damn! this is really killing me inside!

"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice,
but falling in love with you was beyond my control."

2010-05-10T21:26:00.003+08:00

"Sometimes, you got to reflect yourself in the mirror. Maybe you are the reason."

i try fighting to hold on to you.
i try everything i could.
coz of just a msg u made a decision to do this.
you are being unfair!
how many times have i gone through shits with u?
you text other girls in front of me.
even had fights when with me.
did i ever say anything? did i Qn u abt it.
i just keep quiet and dun say much.
coz i dun want us to get affected.
but u being so unfair making it all my fault.
you making me look so bad that u dun see how u treat me.
have you think how i feel all this tyme?
you never! you never noe how it hurts!
you just think about urself and what u want.
have you every asked me? ):
goosh this really is killing me!!!!!

2010-05-10T21:02:00.002+08:00

imysm! ):
why must it turn out this way?
i dun wish for us to be lyke this.
please i dun want to go through this.
its really heartbreaking.. )':

2010-05-10T20:29:00.002+08:00

im seriously down right now.
i dunnoe what is in ur mind.
as time goes by i just feel lyke crying every minute of it..
i try not too, i try to be strong.
but i just couldn't that i had to let the tears go.
it is so heartbreaking to receive that msg from u.
i never expect and want that to happen.
seriously im not even close to seeing that.
gosh! this feeling is killing me.
you just left me hanging in the first place.
making myself to question am i not good for u.
how bad did i treat u that u dun appreciate what i do.
im really disappointed. ):
you the least person i want to cry for.
i dun want us to be lyke this. pls i can't.
how i wish u really know how i feel.
how selfish can u be. just letting me hanging.
thinking, questioning, cursing, crying!
arrggh!! i hate this feeling right now.
i dun want to go another minute of this.
its seriously a heartbreaking situation!

2010-05-09T11:54:00.002+08:00

sumpah aku tgh membara skrg!
lyke serious shit dah tk leh take it.
kalau tak nak cakap!
jgn naaak buat perangai mcm gini.
kau fikir aku apeer? mainan?
kau ingat nie fun fair peer??
senang2 jeer nak uat aper kau suka??
aku bingit sngt tersngt aar..
i made an effort but you??
and whr the hell are u??
aku kat sini mcm orang bodoh tapi ader kau kesah peer??!!
arggggggh!!!!! can i lyke stab you??!
ya i wish i can! m so angry and i cant help it!
been takign in nicotine times and times!
and i got to stop before i kill myself!
bout how could i, with this kind of stress???!!

2010-05-06T23:41:00.002+08:00

its gonan be friday!!
the day which im looking foward too.
its time to enjoy and party!!
weekends is just what i need.
time to slp for a looooong time.
plus a time to relax n not think of sch..
but wait, i just remember i still have my project!
damn you project! suck balls!!
nvr mind i still got 2 days to do till our meeting.
must we lyke have the meeting on a Sunday??
soo not needed seeey!!
ooh well planning to go off n have my beauty slp soon.
since tmrw still need to sch,
even if it start 1hr after 8am which is 9am,
still need wake up in the morning n drag my ass to sch.
so nights all!!
♥FRIDAY SATURDAY SUNDAY ♥

2010-05-06T20:50:00.002+08:00

sorry maybe the simplest or hardest word to say.
but really deep down inside im sorry.
things weren't suppose to be lyke this but it did.
it never did happen between us,
but i thought we could make it as friends.
well looks lyke it only lasted for 4 months.
being a friend to you was a great experience.
thanks a lot for everything, and really i appreciate it.
you shower me with care, concern, love, and been thr for me.
but sorry in return i could only give you friendship and not love.
well i didnt expect things end this way,
coz i dun want be an enemy to u.
oh well i guess from now we done with everything.
and its a goodbye for real.
take care of yourself aites ex-friend.

2010-05-06T20:05:00.002+08:00

sorry babe but it wasn't a mess i create.
you create it and u got urself into it.
im not here to play any games with you.
sorry im not that kind.
if you think what i did was on purpose,
than think for urself what u did?
guess what im not lyke that and i dun play games.
if it was a purpose it will be much more worst.
im cool, im chill coz i noe how to be real.
i can do much better than that and u yet see the worst of me.
come on dun be such hypocrite here k.
really i nvr thought you was that sorry.
you got urself in this, and i wont say much.
sorry if this kinda too harsh but u got to accept it.

2010-05-06T00:01:00.001+08:00

i hate me.
i suck big time.
im a mistake.
im just such a waste.

2010-05-05T09:49:00.004+08:00

an unexpected thing happen yesterday.

out of all people you chat with me.
actually i dun see the purpose of u adding me all.
seriously i dunnoe what u trying to do.
babe just 1 thing to say here.
"I know how u feel, I imagine im in ur place."
those words of urs i wont forget and i will see whr time will take us to?

oh gosh im superdupertuper tired!!!
should i go to slp now??
but i want do my project werk..
i been delaying delaying n delaying it.
but im just so sick and tired to go do research..
goooosh! i really need some super quite princess piggy slp!
its wendesday and tmrw is thursday.
i just cant wait for the weekend!
i just want to wake up late..
and go out and do some retail therapy!!
need new stuff and planning to get it on Friday!
yeaay can't wait for Friday!
its a date with Lukeeeeh-Maaan-Babbby!
and i want watch Iron Man!!
pretty pretty please...! ((:
ookley i just can't wait for weekends people!!
dying and loooking forward to it!

2010-05-04T00:03:00.003+08:00

damn u! damn u! damn u!
or can i say:
F YOU! F YOU! F YOU VERY VERY MUUUUUCH!
i swear that either u are heartless or very heartless!
im faking a smile just so u dunnoe im in pain.
i dun wish to show u my emotions coz i dun want any drama.
you hurt me much and u just dun realise it.
damn u! damn u! damn u!
how could u even possibly thing of that??
argggh!! im piss, im mad, im angry!
im the HULK now!!
amacam saper mau lawan?? mau brani peer?
hahah sumpah aku mepek!!
back to whr i was, damn im pissed off with u!
yesh tellign the truth is a totally YES!
but knowing that u ........
nvr dun wish to say much about it, let me keep it to myself..
im just really sad ):

2010-05-03T09:37:00.004+08:00

Gd Morning People!!

gosh im slpy rite now man!

not much of a rest and i had to drag my ass to sch..

woke up kinda a lil late for sch..

was rushing here and thr and i was so clumsy shit..

im so having Monday Blues!!

damn Monday time table!

and gosh im in an air con room but without air con!!

stooopid air con not bloody werking!!!

hey my bdae had past and i nvr felt lyke it even happen..

oh well it will be a date that i nvr would forget..

not coz it was my bdae but my grandfather pass away..

how sad to see him go..

but what could i do, Allah love him more..

i pray and hope for the best for him up thr..

so since my 18 now, guess that its tyme!

tyme to go get licence!!! hahah!!

sumpah aku happy giler!!

ohya thanks to those who wish me on my bdae..

sadly i couldnt reply u guys..

but heey i appreactie it! thanks aloo!

loove ya people! and big thanks to LuqemannDearest!

oookey im done and how i wish i could be out of this room!!

gosh its freaking hoooot in here!

2010-04-28T14:31:00.001+08:00

9 HOURS PEOPLE!!!! (:

HAPPY PER AKU!! HAHA!

2010-04-27T12:05:00.000+08:00

attention people!!!

guess what??!!
you are left with 2 daes!!!! ((:
woooohoooo!!! (:
let me see what i want for my bdae..
easier why not i just list them down,
so easier for u guys to buy me a present..
hahah!! (:

1. That green G-shock watch!
2. That i-Touch!
3. G-mak ride treat!
4. 9 Archie comic books!
5. Universal Studio!!
6. Bouquet of flowers/roses!
7. Birkenstock Sandal!
8. Green/Black Bag!
9. Necklace with my Name!
10. Wallet!
11. Black Pull n Bear Cap!

ookey im done!! ((:
get ur money ready!

2010-04-25T20:53:00.003+08:00

am i making a big mistake?
no i feel that im the mistake here.
im really am sorry.
in fact now im regretting my decision.
i love what we had and what we gone through.
i dun want us to be lyke this.
and if we end things i still want to be a friend to u.
i dun want u to hate me or call me names.
please i dun wish us to be lyke this.
gosh this is killing me!!
i dun feel lyke going to sch tmrw..
im really in a mess!! ):

2010-04-25T00:39:00.004+08:00

believing is one thing but erasing the painful feeling is another thing.
how i wish u see how my feelings are.
it wasn't about the trusting issue.
its about how i feel.
do you noe how crush was i just now.
how mad, angry, sad i get.
really it wasn't what i expected.
i trust u, really i do.
but i just can't get over it in a matter of seconds.
its not that simple okey.
this is much more painful than anything.
saying that its all up to me now.
do what i want and u wont bother.
does that really show how much u want things to get better?
its just sending the wrong msg to me.
its showing that u don't really care abt how hurt i am.
u dun mind us not getting back to whr we were before.
coz u noe why? loosing me doesn't really matters right.
at least you still have someone with u.
oh well, is this what i get for being quite to myself?
for letting the pain heal so that i be fine and smiling?
im not making a small flame into a blaze.
but i just want to cool down.
how i wish u see that n understand.
coz u just being selfish.
am i at fault right now? ya it seems lyke it.

2010-04-24T22:39:00.003+08:00

arggggh!!!!!!

what a pleasant sight to see just now..
seriously im farking piss off!!!!
man! that didn't just happen!!!
gosh! i cant believe what i saw..
what my heart says is always true!
seriously it hurts so much!!
the anger, the disappointment,
the sad feeling is all mixed up!!!
seriously i dunnoe what to say!
im just speechless..
i try to control my feelings.
but the more i do, the more frustrated i get..
the more i wish i could stab u!!!!!
argggh im so violent!!
i just couldn't help the feeling of being lyke this!!!
you noe what dude,
THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!
sorry just seems so easy to say..
i can forgive but the pain will nvr fade easily..!!

2010-04-19T18:36:00.003+08:00

let's see what should i blog about now??
school maybe??
so far sch been fine, been kinda boring..
still yet to get to the excited part..
oh well it takes tyme right..
and speaking of tyme, tyme is running out people..
my birthday is left with 10 days..
so ya have u guys pack my presents??
haha! so gonna be legal soon! (:
birthday in 10 daes, them that is freaking fast!!
wooohooo!!! ((: ooohley im done!

2010-04-15T21:04:00.002+08:00

damn!! i miss work so much!
lyke seriously a looot!!
especially the people of coz!!
can i lyke just have a day at werk..
damn its so unfair laah!!
oohkey im done here.
nothing much to talk about actually..
and thank god tmrw is friday!!
hoping for the good thing to happen..

2010-04-15T11:42:00.002+08:00

currently im at sch..

suppose to be having lesson now..

but unfortunately lecturer is not here..

so yaa limit2 fb-ing n blogging.. (:

lyke sumpah bored sia at sch..

nothing to dooooo!!

and im so freaking slpy noow!

ooh well atleast get to play the com..

and i be having my break fro, 12pm till 2pm laah..

2 jam break, baeek peer!!

oooh well looks lyke its really over..

the friendship i guess really end this tyme..

i have nothing much to say but i wish he noes the real story..

oh well is it fated or is it whaat??

tears again, oh well it dosent matter to you anymore..

to you its just a farking fake shit i given!

2010-04-11T00:22:00.004+08:00

oh my things between us really are messy now.
i never really understand what u trying to do..
first u trying to make things better..
but than u end things up..
and than again u want thing get better..
but end up we are, now u finally end it..
ur words are too harsh..
seriously i nvr thought u would be lyke this.
i thought u someone different than others..
i thought u are my friend, my real friend..
but i had it all wrong..
you think negatively about me..
you think im making a trap for you..
i just dun understand what are u saying and trying to do here??
nvr in my life i feel so dissapointed and so sad with a friend..
and now i finally really lost a friend..
unlike u, you are happy abt it but not me..
is this tears wasted for u or worth it, Kai?

2010-04-10T22:13:00.002+08:00

i was out of the house for abt 1 and a half hour.
thank god i had some fresh air.
sumpah aku dah mcm dlm jail k.
had dinner at kfc with the 'sexygayboi'.
thanks for teman-ing me, klw taak sumpah aku sorang2 tadi.
and ya i yet to quit my job, coz i love that place.
i wont quit my job even though You talk to my manager.
and my manager was kind enuf to understand my situation.
my name is still in the list (:
at least i have something to smile about.
seriously fml now!!!
sumpah aku dah tkder benda nak uat!
sumpah aku dah mcm dlm jail k!
tu betul tak bedek, serious shit nya!
im so boreeeed! i have nothing to do!
since the tyme i woke up, i've been in front of the lappy.
and now im bored to death that im listerning to jiwang2 songs.
that is sang by those bdk2 under the blk dgn guitar.
ookey i been updating my blog since yesterday..
and its so alive, but i wonder who read my damn boring fucked up life??

2010-04-10T16:04:00.002+08:00

seriously im so stress up now!
i have no one to turn too now.
only here i can express all my feelings out.
at least my blog still stay with me.
Friday at home.
Saturday at home.
and i bet Sunday stay at home.
school is starting this Monday.
and seriously i have fucking nothing prepare for sch..
im sooo stress out here!!!
i need sch bag, i need shoes!!!
argggghhh!! fark!fark!fark!!
what should i do now at home?
sumpah im soooo boreeed!!!

2010-04-09T15:44:00.003+08:00

dude, if you think i gonna lyn ur crap todae,
sorry i am not gonna do that.
seriously i dun have tyme to have fights with you..
or even get mad at you for no reason.
so now i guess u just step back before u get onto my nerves.
coz im not a single mad abt you so dun make me.
im haing my own prob and pls i dun wish you to be my next one.
so i suggest back off now aites.
you can go have fun with ur bois, with ur PA, ur gfs or whoever laah.
u dun have to even think and care about me.
coz that would be the last thing you will do to spoilt ur mood.
im sorry i've been not a friend to you,
but hey look at the bright side, you have even better friends than me.

2010-04-09T14:48:00.002+08:00

Life is offically over for me.
Finish. The End. Game Over.
that 5 mins will really make a big diff.
oh man, it sure feels lyke crap for me.
the day i be looking forward to isn't the most day i want now.
don't think it will be much off a diff.
being 18, a year older won't change much.
im just 8 instead in ur eyes.
im still a lil' kid with no life (:
it's sure that no one wants to be in my place.
seriously i wont blame anyone but me.
i was a lil' over and should have known the consequences.
seriously 29 April, won't be much a thing now.
it feels lyke crap than ever that this happen.